Anna K is the happily-married mother of three children and one terrier. She entered the Orthodox church in 2005 shortly before completing her Master's Degree in Eastern European History. Her writing discusses the spiritual lessons she learns in her everyday life as a wife and mama.
Yesterday, I met with a friend who is worlds ahead of me spiritually. I shared at length with her about a chronic problem I’m struggling with.
At one point, I said, “There are times when I think ‘I’ve got this’ because I go weeks without any issues. But other times, I stop in horror and think, ‘I can’t do this. I can’t beat this.'”
What she said stunned me.
“You’re right. Here’s the wake-up call: You can’t do it. You’ll never be able to beat it. EVER . But you know who can? You know who’s all-powerful and can move mountains with a thought? God.”
I fell back in my chair. I’ve believed in God since I was a kid, but this was somehow news to me. My deepest, darkest qualities? God can take those away?
My friend went on: “You need to embrace those moments when you say ‘I can’t” because you’re right. You can’t. And God is waiting for you to realize that. So when you have that clarity, drop to your knees and thank God, and then tell Him you’re ready to be relieved of your burden. He’ll take it from you. You just have to ask.”
Glory to God for all things – even the things I don’t want – because I get to learn and share.
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