One psalm tells me, “He will not allow your foot to slip; He who keeps you will not slumber” (Psalm 121:3). That’s good news. Why do I feel like I’m slipping anyway?
I write this post at 2:00 am, knowing that I need to get up for liturgy in 4 or 5 hours or so.
I write at a point in my life when challenges and blessings are both being presented to me, if not in abundance, at least in magnitude.
I give thanks and make my petitions known to God.
In my early 40s, I am full of fears I should not have and joys I had no idea I would ever know.
I’m full of hope, but my hope is tested by the unexpected. I believe, and I pray that God would help my unbelief.
“He grants sleep to those he loves,” says the psalmist in Psalm 127:2.
So I will sleep (though I do not want to) grateful for the gift.
I am loved. And unloved. Wanted and rejected. May God forgive and bless us all who are so similarly placed in tension.
It is time to rest. Tomorrow will have new challenges in addition to the ones left unfinished from today.
I fall asleep, grateful. Life is hard, but God is good. God’s goodness is greater than life’s hardness.
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